I know I have been AWOL, but I have not deserted you, I promise. I love blogging too much to do that. My life kinda got in the way of all my best laid plans the past week. My mother in law had a stroke and one of my very dearest friends found out she has recurrent breast cancer. These events plus being
already from many changes at work as well as other things has had me re-evaluating my life.
I have been living way too stressed and robot-like for way too long. I haven’t enjoyed much and back in August the stress of my life landed me in the hospital for a week. There was no cause for my illness, I had none of the factors that would have normally caused the problem. Chalk it up to stress. Earlier last week I started getting a sick feeling again and decided I needed to make some major changes in my life or I was going to end up right back in the hospital.
I needed to rethink how I was living each day, what is most important, and what I could change to make my life better, more full and enjoyable. In a nutshell to find more balance-
You know that I have been trying to simplify my life by getting rid of the clutter – the objects and material items that don’t matter to me anymore. I had also decided to simplify the mental part of my life. I have been thinking about doing this for some time. I want to streamline my life, to make room for more – more life that is, less stuff. I want to take classes and learn so many new things that require more time and to make more time – I have to do less.
In my quest to live more simply, I have also been asking myself why am I not living more authentically. I have been too busy to stop and think where I am in life and where am going. I want to be more of the authentic “me” again. What I write about on this blog is the authentic me. The one that is passionate about color and decorating and all things creative who enjoys sharing and loves to connect. I want to bring more of that Diane back into the other areas of my life – work being the main area. I used to do residential decorating for homeowners and staging for Realtors. I was in a partnership with another designer and we were quite successful, but if you know anything about business partnerships you know that they don’t work 90% of the time. My partnership didn’t last and after we parted ways I lost my desire to decorate and I got a job in retail display which is where I have been for the last three years.
Fast forward to last week and I knew I had to make some changes. After talking it over with my hubby, I am making a switcheroo. I resigned from my job. I feel if I have to work for a living, I might as well do something that I enjoy and am good at. I am going back into the decorating business which will also include online consultations for readers that don’t live nearby. Best of all by making this change I can make my own hours and find the balance that I need in my life. I will once again be able to enjoy all life has to offer which includes spending time with elderly parents who are not going to be around much longer and friends who need a loving shoulder to cry on. Life is just too short to not live for each and every moment.
I have a deep desire to make the most of my life and follow the road towards living a life that makes “me” the best possible “me” I can. One with more balance to do what is important. It will be with less, but I have found that less- is more. I am giving myself a second chance to do what I do best. All of the recent choices I have made are kind of scary, but it had all been building up and with the events of last week, it made it easier to make the changes. I think they are all positive and will be taking me in a much better, more authentic direction in this journey called Life.
On a project note:
I am almost finished the re-do of my foyer steps. Remember them? It has been awhile since I started them. I will post about them later in the week. Just a few more tweaks and they will be complete.